Do I make You Proud?

I watched the American Idol finale season 5 about a month ago, but really got to love the song the winner sang as I listen to it tonight. Wow the words are really powerful and full of spirituality too. WOW... look at these lyrics:

Do I make You Proud?
Sung by: Taylor Hicks (American Idol winner season 5)

I've never been the one to raise my hand,
That was not me and now that's who I am
Because of you I am standing tall,

My heart is full of endless gratitude,
You were the one,
the one to guide me through,
Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning
Chorus-
This what we dream about but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been NOW
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

I guess I've learned, to question is to grow
That you still have faith, is all I need to know
I've learned to love, myself in spite of me
And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe

This what we dream about but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been NOW
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Do I make God proud with the things that I do? the way I act? If he were to come to my door today would I be prepared for his return? No, I would say no.

A while ago a person that i didnt realy know too well came over and said that God wanted him to tell me that he is proud of me ( i think i blogged it a while ago). He is proud that i perservere throug trials and that no matter what i am going through I still worship God with my whole heart.

This month, i definitly canot say that I have made God proud. I dont think I have worshipped him the way he deserves. So much has happened in my life this last month, and its very overwhelming and I have distracted myself from the problems in my life. I have not read my bible very much, I have been distracting myself with other stuff: computer, and TV mostly...its not good.

Father, please forgive me for being lazy. I should realize even if i feel overwhelmed that i should perservere through it and worship you more than i have ever worshipped you in my life. I should have faith that you will bring me through it. I love you Father, and I thank you for your mercy and grace in my life! Amen