Gone Vacationing

he he..get it? Instead of gone FISHING? ha ha ha ha...anyways...

Sorry for my lack of writing blogs lately. I have been very caught up in writing my new story. I have had writers block for about 2 years and nevr really attempted to do anything about that writers block. Then I joined the Clay boards and I met some wonderful people there, and one of them is my co-author :) She writes one page of story, and then I continuie and write 3 after that, then when I get writers block, she writes another page (sometimes 2) So my story is now 28 pages long ha ha... nice! I started it last week... like the 22nd I believe.

ANYWHO, I am going on holidays until the 4th of July, so I won't be blogging unless I can get to a computer to tell you about my trip. That might happen. If I dont blog you will know why tho! God Bless and see you all on the 4th!

Blessings..

Do I make You Proud?

I watched the American Idol finale season 5 about a month ago, but really got to love the song the winner sang as I listen to it tonight. Wow the words are really powerful and full of spirituality too. WOW... look at these lyrics:

Do I make You Proud?
Sung by: Taylor Hicks (American Idol winner season 5)

I've never been the one to raise my hand,
That was not me and now that's who I am
Because of you I am standing tall,

My heart is full of endless gratitude,
You were the one,
the one to guide me through,
Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning
Chorus-
This what we dream about but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been NOW
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

I guess I've learned, to question is to grow
That you still have faith, is all I need to know
I've learned to love, myself in spite of me
And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe

This what we dream about but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been NOW
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Do I make God proud with the things that I do? the way I act? If he were to come to my door today would I be prepared for his return? No, I would say no.

A while ago a person that i didnt realy know too well came over and said that God wanted him to tell me that he is proud of me ( i think i blogged it a while ago). He is proud that i perservere throug trials and that no matter what i am going through I still worship God with my whole heart.

This month, i definitly canot say that I have made God proud. I dont think I have worshipped him the way he deserves. So much has happened in my life this last month, and its very overwhelming and I have distracted myself from the problems in my life. I have not read my bible very much, I have been distracting myself with other stuff: computer, and TV mostly...its not good.

Father, please forgive me for being lazy. I should realize even if i feel overwhelmed that i should perservere through it and worship you more than i have ever worshipped you in my life. I should have faith that you will bring me through it. I love you Father, and I thank you for your mercy and grace in my life! Amen

The Lord is at work with his children!

Tonight, I had the opportunity to visit my friends mother in the hospice that she is in. My friend's youth group were going to come and pray with her mother. That was an amazing night that I will never forget. They got there after we did, we got to chat with her mother for a while... then the youth group showed up, and they talked for a little bit, but then just started praying. They immediately started praying in tongues. It was amazing to see God working in that room. They prayed for everything for this woman. As they were praying I could see God actually breathing life into her, they all saw colour coming back into her. It was amazing. Surely the best night! Its encouragement that I needed to see! Praise the Lord!

Oh and Praise the Lord for removing writer's block. I haven't been able to write a story in almost 2 years straight. I have attempted but its just gone bad. I have had an idea in my head for a few months of a story, but i didnt quite know how to put it to paper. After some encouragement from friends of mine from a forum that I belong to... ahem.. i won't say which one, cuz people will get mad...or they will roll their eyes... lol.... They encouraged me and gave me some ideas of how to start the story... so I have been writing non stop for hte last hour and I am at 3 pages long. Its mostly dialoque at this point, so i need to go back and put some descriptions and stuff in there. Its a work in progress tho and so Praise the Lord! But nooooo more writing, I have picked my brain enough tonight with this thing. LOL

Live a Life Uncommon

Romans 12:1-2 says "I appeal to you therefore, brothers by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."

We are called to live a life that is not wordly... we are called to live a life uncommon. I don't know about you, but I want to live a life that is uncommon in the world. I don't want to live by the world's standards. I am so sick of following what the world says to do. I am so sick of doing stuff that God does not want me to do.

Listen to this song by Jewel (I apologize that it is a montage of Clay but this is how i came across the song, then I downloaded it, but I can't figure out how to get just the song on here..sorry y'all)Don't pay attention to the video, pay attention to the words....

The Video:


The Lyrics:

Don't worry mother, it'll be alright
And don't worry sister, say your prayers and sleep right
It'll be fine lover of mine
It'll be just fine

Lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend you strength to that which you wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery
And you shall lead a live uncommon

I've heard your anguish
I've heard your hearts cry out
We are tired, we are weary, but we aren't worn out
set down your chains, until only faith remains
Set down your chains

And lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend your strength to that
which you wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead a life uncommon

There are plenty of people who pray for peace
But if praying were enough it would have come to be
Let your words enslave no one and the heavens will hush themselves
To hear out voices ring out clear
with sounds of freedom
sounds of freedom

Come on you unbelievers, move out of the way
there is a new army coming and we are armed with faith
To live, we must give
To live

And lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend out strength to that which we with to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead...

Lend our voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend out strength to that which we with to be free from
Fill you lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead a life uncommon

Joy in the midst of Sorrow

This morning my brother comes in the room and wakes me up and says that a friend of the family had passed away suddenly last night. His name was Peter Rolston, now if you grew up on the coast from the 60's to the 80's you will know that name. He was a famous ventriloquist. He had a TV show. He was a really nice guy. I bought his book and he signed it for me :) I will treasure that forever. Anyways... So I was really upset about it and I was quite deprsesed the whole day. When my brother told me I was in shock and couldnt say anything... my mouth was open and my eyes were wide.. (and blinking as well cuz i had just woke up) but anyways... I was quite sad..still am to a certain point but I was very encouraged tonight.

Karyn mentioned that there is going to be a dramatic reading of Psalm 29 on Sunday morning. She said that I can participate if I want, and I am going to. Psalm 29 says:

Psalm 29
Ascribe to the LORD, O mighty ones,
ascribe to the LORD glory and strength.
Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;
worship the LORD in the splendor of his holiness.

The voice of the LORD is over the waters;
the God of glory thunders,
the LORD thunders over the mighty waters.
The voice of the LORD is powerful;
the voice of the LORD is majestic.

The voice of the LORD breaks the cedars;
the LORD breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon.
He makes Lebanon skip like a calf,
Sirion like a young wild ox.

The voice of the LORD strikes
with flashes of lightning.
The voice of the LORD shakes the desert;
the LORD shakes the Desert of Kadesh.
The voice of the LORD twists the oaks
and strips the forests bare.
And in his temple all cry, "Glory!"

The LORD sits enthroned over the flood;
the LORD is enthroned as King forever.
The LORD gives strength to his people;
the LORD blesses his people with peace.

I was very encouraged especially by the last verse (in bold) It is totally what I needed to hear tonight! Praise the Lord!

Do not be afraid

First of all, it has been brought to my attention that my posts are being put one on top of the other when you go to read them. Send me an email to let me know if this is waht you are seeing too so i can fix it:)

So I was walking home from youth tonight and i was a little scared. I am paranoid of everything, so i was constantly looking behind me while walking down 10th ave. I was walking to cross canada way and the church sign across the way said this (i am not kidding) "Do not be afraid" WOW... thank you Jesus for that wonderful message in a time when I needed it!

Do not be afraid, for I am with you. ~Isaiah 43:5