This afternoon I came to a great conclusion about God's plan for my life!
I was chatting with a friend from Summerland and we were talking about God's plan for our lives. I was telling him how I don't know what God has planned for my life. A month ago Julian moved back to Summerland and I became very depressed because at that point I loved him as more than a friend, I wanted to date him (I have since then realized that it is not dating that i want.. its friendship that I want with him, and I am really happy about that because I don't want to screw up our friendship)
I was very depressed about him leaving. I had planned to move to Summerland, I was going to drop out of school if that was what God wanted me to do. I kept praying about it and praying about it and asking God what he wanted me to do. He told me to stay in New West. There is so much he wants me to do here. I was angry because I wanted to be in Summerland, I wanted to move there. God told me that he wants me to keep working with the youth that went with RAW.. like go on the missions with them. I was not thinking I was not making a difference being here.
I have realized that God wants me to stay in New West because he is helping me to grow! Ever since RAW I have been stepping out of my comfort zone and speaking in public. It all started when God told me to prophecy to Drew from RAW. I barely knew him and God told me to tell him something. So I told him (it turns out it was relevant to his life... woot!) I was very fearful before I told him because I didn't know how he was going to react to it and stuff. But I did it and ever since then I have been stepping out of my comfort zone. This past Saturday we did an open air at Moody Park. It was awesome! I had no fear of seeing people that I knew, I had no fear of what others would think of me. I praised God, I read scripture in public and had no fear or anything about it. My stomach usually hurts really bad before i speak in public and stuff... but it didn't hurt or anything.
God is helping me to step out of my comfort zone and rely on Him to get me places. He is helping me grow so when I do move I can survive out on my own. By stepping out of my comfort zone, I will get somewhere in life. I can work in the field I am going to work at and not be shy. I can't be shy in this field, I have to make conversation with people and I have to be positive. God is continuing to work through this stuff: Patience, Making conversation, being Positive etc, so I can live out on my own and survive!
God truly does know the plans he has for me! Woot!!!!! God is good!
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile." *Jeremiah 29:11-14*
God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect. *Hebrews 11:40*
"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it." *Isaiah 30:21*
"Observe the commands of the LORD your God, walking in his ways and revering him." *Deuteronomy 8:6*
"I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have already attained." *Philippians 3:14-16*
Monday, April 24, 2006
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Spiritual Gifts
I was bored this morning, so I searched google.ca for a Spiritual Gifts test. I got this website called Online Spiritual Gifts Test Inventory. This is the basic spiritual gifts: Exhortation, Service, Mercy, Leadership, Teaching, Prophecy and Giving. There are 35 questions that you answer. When I did this test I got:
EXHORTATION (14): Romans 12:8 - to come along side of someone with words of encouragement, comfort, consolation, and counsel to help them be all God wants them to be (Greek Word: paraklesis - calling to one’s side)
SERVICE (15): Romans 12:7 - to identify undone tasks in God’s work, however menial, and use available resources to get the job done (Greek Word: diakonia - deacon, attendant ‘diako’=to run errands)
MERCY (15): Romans 12:8 - to be sensitive toward those who are suffering, whether physically, mentally, or emotionally, so as to feel genuine sympathy with their misery, speaking words of compassion but moreso caring for them with deeds of love to help alleviate their distress
I encourage you to do this test and comment here and let me know the top three u got (or the highest ones... these three were the only 2 digit numbers)
We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully. ~Romans 12:6-8
EXHORTATION (14): Romans 12:8 - to come along side of someone with words of encouragement, comfort, consolation, and counsel to help them be all God wants them to be (Greek Word: paraklesis - calling to one’s side)
SERVICE (15): Romans 12:7 - to identify undone tasks in God’s work, however menial, and use available resources to get the job done (Greek Word: diakonia - deacon, attendant ‘diako’=to run errands)
MERCY (15): Romans 12:8 - to be sensitive toward those who are suffering, whether physically, mentally, or emotionally, so as to feel genuine sympathy with their misery, speaking words of compassion but moreso caring for them with deeds of love to help alleviate their distress
I encourage you to do this test and comment here and let me know the top three u got (or the highest ones... these three were the only 2 digit numbers)
We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully. ~Romans 12:6-8
Saturday, April 22, 2006
God's great love
I have been thinking about God's great unfailing love lately. He always is faithful. Why? Because he loves us unconditionally! No matter how much we screw up.... well here are some verses I was reading tonight...
Psalm 63:2-4I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands.
Psalm 86:12-14 (New International Version)
I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever.
For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.
The arrogant are attacking me, O God; a band of ruthless men seeks my life— men without regard for you.
I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself.
Psalm 91:13-15 (New International Version)
You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
Psalm 108:3-5 (New International Version)
I will praise you, O LORD, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, higher than the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens, and let your glory be over all the earth.
I am going to be going through the whole book of Psalms.
Please keep me accountable (those of you who see me regularly that is)
Blessings everyone!
Friday, April 21, 2006
MercyMe
Hey everyone I just thought I would promote the new MercyMe album "Coming Up to Breathe" I love this band so much.. Here is the site where you can preview little clips of their songs. Good as usual I must say.
http://www.grassrootsmusic.com/artist/mercyme/mercyme10
:) 5 days til it comes out. I have it pre-ordered and I get a hat too :)
http://www.grassrootsmusic.com/artist/mercyme/mercyme10
:) 5 days til it comes out. I have it pre-ordered and I get a hat too :)
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Silence
On Tuesday night Re:Fuge we learned about Silence..
This is a tough thing for me. Some questions that were asked were:
-Do you have a hard time being quiet? Yes
-What are the noises in your life? Music mostly
-Do you have the power to remove the noises? Yes, but I usually choose not to because I love music
-Do you have the power to control the noises? Yes
-Do you have the power to minimalize the noises? Yes
-Do you have time in your day to be silent with God? I don't make the time unfortunatly
-Is it possible that God speaks to you all the time? Yes, but its the fact that I don't listen sometimes
-When you are troubled with things who do you go to, God or others? Firstly, others and then God...it shouldnt be that way.
-What is the longest time you spent in silence? 5 minutes
-Are you afraid of being alone with God? I guess.... I just don't like silence.
Those were tough questions to answer. There were some verses that were spoken too:
Deuteronomy27:9-Then Moses and the priests, who are Levites, said to all Israel, "Be silent, O Israel, and listen! You have now become the people of the LORD your God.
Psalm4:4-In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent.
Habakkuk2:20-But the LORD is in his holy temple; let all the earth be silent before him.
Matthew11:28-Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Psalm46:10-Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
Have you spent 5 even 10 minutes in silence before God?
This is a tough thing for me. Some questions that were asked were:
-Do you have a hard time being quiet? Yes
-What are the noises in your life? Music mostly
-Do you have the power to remove the noises? Yes, but I usually choose not to because I love music
-Do you have the power to control the noises? Yes
-Do you have the power to minimalize the noises? Yes
-Do you have time in your day to be silent with God? I don't make the time unfortunatly
-Is it possible that God speaks to you all the time? Yes, but its the fact that I don't listen sometimes
-When you are troubled with things who do you go to, God or others? Firstly, others and then God...it shouldnt be that way.
-What is the longest time you spent in silence? 5 minutes
-Are you afraid of being alone with God? I guess.... I just don't like silence.
Those were tough questions to answer. There were some verses that were spoken too:
Deuteronomy27:9-Then Moses and the priests, who are Levites, said to all Israel, "Be silent, O Israel, and listen! You have now become the people of the LORD your God.
Psalm4:4-In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent.
Habakkuk2:20-But the LORD is in his holy temple; let all the earth be silent before him.
Matthew11:28-Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Psalm46:10-Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
Have you spent 5 even 10 minutes in silence before God?
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Idolatry is a scary thing! WOW
Tonight at Re:fuge we were talking about Idolatry. Now I was like " ok whatever, I dont worship anything except for God" but then the definition of Idolatry came up: Anything that keeps us from thinking about God. I just looked the definition up in the dictionary and it says this:
i·dol·a·try ( P ) Pronunciation Key (-dl-tr)n. pl. i·dol·a·tries
Worship of idols.
Blind or excessive devotion to something.
I was like.. OUCH... The activity that we did was writing our idols on the clay pot.. pray about it and give it over to God and then SMASH IT with a hammer in a pillow case.. It was so relieving to do. Oh.. my idol that God showed me were the following: Julian, Money, and MY OWN WAY (what I want to happen and not caring what God wants to happen)
Before the preach Cory played the guitar and we worshipped God through music. I gave my all tonight because I was so broken all day today. I was just not having a good day, i was stressed and I was upset because of probably not being able to go to Summerland at the end of April.. So I just worshipped in faith. And what do y'know? I was given COMPLETE joy! Funny how that works..
When I was worshipping I gave my relationship with Julian over to God. I was in a nut shell thinking about Julian too much and God not enough. and I was wanting things to work out with Julian so badly that I was willing to anything. That is when I realized what I was doing. I was thinking about Julian more than God (which at that point I didnt know it was idolatry) So I gave that relationship over to God. If its his will that we are good friends, I will be fine with that (It will take time to move on.. but with God's help I can do it) If it is his will that we date and/or marry..than God will make that happen. But until then I need to not think about it. I have given it over to God, to let HIM do the working and the thinking.. not me...
I am so full of joy right now! Thank you God! I love feeling like this.
"You shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below." Exodus 20:3-4
i·dol·a·try ( P ) Pronunciation Key (-dl-tr)n. pl. i·dol·a·tries
Worship of idols.
Blind or excessive devotion to something.
I was like.. OUCH... The activity that we did was writing our idols on the clay pot.. pray about it and give it over to God and then SMASH IT with a hammer in a pillow case.. It was so relieving to do. Oh.. my idol that God showed me were the following: Julian, Money, and MY OWN WAY (what I want to happen and not caring what God wants to happen)
Before the preach Cory played the guitar and we worshipped God through music. I gave my all tonight because I was so broken all day today. I was just not having a good day, i was stressed and I was upset because of probably not being able to go to Summerland at the end of April.. So I just worshipped in faith. And what do y'know? I was given COMPLETE joy! Funny how that works..
When I was worshipping I gave my relationship with Julian over to God. I was in a nut shell thinking about Julian too much and God not enough. and I was wanting things to work out with Julian so badly that I was willing to anything. That is when I realized what I was doing. I was thinking about Julian more than God (which at that point I didnt know it was idolatry) So I gave that relationship over to God. If its his will that we are good friends, I will be fine with that (It will take time to move on.. but with God's help I can do it) If it is his will that we date and/or marry..than God will make that happen. But until then I need to not think about it. I have given it over to God, to let HIM do the working and the thinking.. not me...
I am so full of joy right now! Thank you God! I love feeling like this.
"You shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below." Exodus 20:3-4
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Angry!
What is going on?
Satan is working right now
He is working harder than ever
To keep us from God
That stupid jerk has NO POWER
NONE
He is NOT going to screw up my life
EVER
He is NOT going to ruin my friend’s lives
NEVER
He has NO power over me!
NONE!
I am not going to let him attack me anymore
The Lord is so much stronger than him
The Lord loves me
Satan just wants me to rot!
NEVER GONNA HAPPEN
You can’t steal my joy!
You can’t take it!
You can’t have my heart!
You can’t take my friends away from me!
You can’t steal their joy!
You need to leave this place!
BE GONE!
This poem is not that great.. its just my thoughts written down. I am so angry at Satan right now. He has put me in this depression AGAIN, he is ruining my friend's lives and I am no longer going to take it! I am angry at him!!!!!!!!!! I HATE him!!!!!!!!!
Satan is working right now
He is working harder than ever
To keep us from God
That stupid jerk has NO POWER
NONE
He is NOT going to screw up my life
EVER
He is NOT going to ruin my friend’s lives
NEVER
He has NO power over me!
NONE!
I am not going to let him attack me anymore
The Lord is so much stronger than him
The Lord loves me
Satan just wants me to rot!
NEVER GONNA HAPPEN
You can’t steal my joy!
You can’t take it!
You can’t have my heart!
You can’t take my friends away from me!
You can’t steal their joy!
You need to leave this place!
BE GONE!
This poem is not that great.. its just my thoughts written down. I am so angry at Satan right now. He has put me in this depression AGAIN, he is ruining my friend's lives and I am no longer going to take it! I am angry at him!!!!!!!!!! I HATE him!!!!!!!!!
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